It’s easy to hide because I could go strong for months on end, and then have a “crash” and need to recoup for a week or two. And lately, I could only go strong for a few weeks before I needed my solitude to rest for as long as it took. I have all sorts of remedies, magic tonics, drawers full of high quality vitamins. I have been to a gazillion doctors, both medical and naturopathic. I have learned from both. But this is only part of the solution.
Why am I sharing this not-so-sexy topic with you? Because your health matters. Your self-esteem matters. The butterflies you feel in your belly matter. If you IGNORE, Sshh, or NUMB out even the most subtle aches and pains or quiet the voices in your head, you are essentially telling your body it doesn’t matter. And whether you realize it, this influences your confidence, decreases your pleasure potential, squeezes the life out of your intimate relationships, and negatively affects your sex drive. Have I got your attention?
On my recent health sabbatical, I got clear that there needs to be balance between body, mind and soul for true health to be present. And the way to access this harmonious trinity is through embodiment. That’s right, Healthcare Begins with Embodiment.
When you read my website, the word “embodiment” gets used a lot. I can’t help it … as a “somatic” practitioner, I’m all about the body! I’ve become an expert at what feels good to my body, what I can eat and how I best digest. I have learned how my body is most comforted, how it likes to moves, and what turns me on. And because I consider myself a student of life, I tend to my mind’s needs for stimulation and inspiration that keep me learning, reading and discovering! As a teacher and practitioner of “boundaries,” it wasn’t until I got quiet and noticed the chain of events that happened time and again that triggered my health crashes , that I realized my “energetic (soul) boundaries” were the weak link. My connection with soul was being left out of my embodiment practice because I was ignoring my inner voice and intuition on countless occasions.
On my quest to balance mind, body and soul, I checked into the Optimum Health Institute in San Diego. My goal was to quiet my mind, rebuild my body with nutrient rich food, and begin a practice of connecting with my soul. I wore a “silent” badge for the week so I could minimize outside influences and not take on anyone else’s stuff. It was symbolic of my new found boundary to put my needs before the needs of others. This was me time. Time to clear the clutter and develop a deeper awareness to better hear my soul needs.
I promise to get into boundaries in a future blog, but the take-away I want you to have right now is the importance of nourishing, loving, and refueling all aspects that make us uniquely human: Mind, Body, and Soul. And the way to do that is to develop a strong practice of embodiment. Not surprisingly, when embodiment is not present, our fuel runs low. When all cylinders aren’t firing, it will most certainly affect the libido. The need to sometimes take a break from sexy time is real and in many cases, it’s what’s needed. But if it becomes acute, it's a sign that there’s a bigger problem that needs your attention.
I’m pleased to say that on the last night of my retreat, I reviewed all that I had discovered, let go of, and created. I felt realigned, but I I had a sense that something was still missing. So I asked my “higher self"... what else needed tending to on my healing journey? And then I got a twinge and a pulse in-between my legs. Yes. You read that correctly. My Soul connected with my Body to encourage me to re-ignite my erotic pilot light. And my Mind knows that when the pelvic floor beckons, we are on the right path!
It was literally the cherry on the sundae , the perfect climax to the end of my week, and a savory sample to what balancing our holy trinity looks, feels, and sounds like.
Don’t wait until your aches, pains, and voices get so loud that your body organizes itself in a way that only a devastating doctor diagnosis will stop you in your tracks. Instead, take two shots of embodiment and begin taking inventory of your mind, body, soul connection. And remember, when you feel a pelvic floor pulse that needs quenching, you are on the right track!
Before you can answer, how do you define malnourishment?
It could be that you are going to sleep feeling hungry. That you don’t know what true nourishment is so you are filling up on empty calories trying to satisfy a craving that just won’t go away. Or could it be that your appetite has diminished, regardless of your physical size, and your body stops feeling, responding, or even caring. You are numbed out.
If that’s the case, how often are you getting fed? Once a day, once a week? Once a month, or every once in awhile? Are you eating alone? Or perhaps secretly binge eating? Maybe you’re giving your portion up to feed someone else’s needs, and you are left feeling empty, literally and figuratively.
I’ve got it … you are saving your calories for a special occasion. For a special dinner and night out on the town. And lo and behold, you arrive dressed to impress to your favorite restaurant and you order the same meal that you had last time. The same meal you have every time. It’s safe. It’s predictable. It’s good. But after awhile, it starts to loose its pizazz. You think about trying something else, but you’d rather tolerate what you know than go into uncharted territory.
Whether you are eating fast food or certified organic, most of us are sexually malnourished in one way or another. And that, my friends, is a sad state of affairs. Even for those of you who feel confident in your sexual conquests and prowess, there are things that you don’t know you don’t know. There are flavors and spices and ways of combining ingredients that turn your ordinary meals into foodgasms!
Don’t get me wrong… I love my comfort food. We are creatures of habit and routines make us feel safe. But if our routines mean we are prioritizing complacency over intimacy, and surviving over living, then I urge, plead and beg you to honestly assess if you are getting what you need in all areas of your life. Specifically: How do your sexual and intimate experiences (or lack thereof) contribute to or take away from a well-nourished life?
My work as a sexual educator and intimacy coach introduces the spices that you didn’t know existed. But before we can set the table to experience a new recipe, we might need to tend the soil, pull out the weeds, remineralize, and create a healthier environment so we can grow what pleases us most.
Discovering what we have the taste for and what our bodies need is an adventure, and it can be fun. I know you have done the best you can with what you’ve been taught or picked up along the way. And if you are still reading this, then I know you are curious. I know you are starting to evaluate if you are saving your calories for a rainy day or considering repositioning your garden to a place where the the radiant Vitamin D sunshine can nourish and grow the seeds you decide to plant. to give you the true nourishment you deserve.
Don’t let yourself starve anymore. Stop eating empty calories.
Let the Pleasure Muse be your Vitamin D.
New Moons. New Journeys. New career as a Sex and Relationship Coach & Educator.
If you know anything about me, it’s that I’m always recreating myself based on what’s developmentally appropriate for my stage in life. After high school, I went to Boston University and embellished upon my love for media and cultural identity. This took me to live in New York City for nearly ten years, working in news and then feeling like I wanted to make a bigger contribution to the developing confidence of young Hispanic Americans who grew up like me, acculturated and learning and using a second language to better navigate life. So it was a great honor to become part of the development team for Nickelodeon’s Dora the Explorer just after completing my master’s degree in Education, helping to develop Dora’s Latina identity and the educational curriculum. After 100 episodes, I moved to LA with my then actor husband. I shifted focus from children’s media to help launch SiTV, an English language multicultural cable network that become a second family to me, producing and developing hundreds of hours of original programming with friends that are still near and dear. Upon entering my current marriage, I never thought I would not become a biological mother. I’m fortunate to call myself a step-mom, but major health issues in my late 30s had me turn to holistic care, taking a break from TV producing, and needing to slow down. I opened a health coaching and colon hydrotherapy spa where I learned a great deal about my nurturing interpersonal skills and ability to hold safe space for people. Jason and I had to face the fact that having a baby was not in our cards. It was a crushing experience? and I had to learn to deal with the disappointment. So me being me, and being in-love with learning and expanding, I said, "Well, if we aren’t going to use sex for procreation, what else can we learn about it that can continue to evolve and heighten our already amazing marriage?" So … for the last few years, I have been studying and embarking upon yet another new journey as Sex and Relationship Educator. I have traveled and studied with the best of the best. Jason has enjoyed the homework and I have thoroughly enjoyed making a difference in people’s lives in such a short time. I have been building a private practice where I help couples, women, and men with intimacy expansion, unblocking challenges, healing past hurts / trauma, and shaking up stagnation. I don’t call it a sexual revolution; I call it a sexual evolution … evolving our comfort zones to get the real sex education none of us truly received or have had too much shame or embarrassment to seek help with, or to admit that we even need help. It was supposed to be something we just knew and/ or modeled based on media presentations, or tolerated based on expectations. Don’t get me wrong, I realize we all have natural abilities …. But what I’ve been working on will move you from fast food to fine dining. From tolerating to tantalizing. From shame to pleasure. From insecurity to exuberant self-expression.
With this new moon and recent Spring equinox … baby … I’m here to tell you about the birds and the bees! There it is … I’m out of the closet ... I’m a Sex and Relationship Coach and Educator, aka The Pleasure Muse, committed that my clients (and my husband) relish in love, intimacy and perpetual fireworks!